This is the story of how after many years of difficult and seemingly impossible relationships across the world I finally actually found my life partner.
I have been a young successful professional.
I have traveled by myself for over than 15 countries.
I have been bulimic.
I have been a conventional partner in a conventional relationship.
I have been a lover in an affair.
I have left everything behind for love.
I have changed the city I was living in for love.
I have been in a relationship with a person that could have been my father.
I have adapted myself until the extreme, losing myself in the way, in order to accomplish his needs.
I traveled to other country to meet a person thinking that maybe this time he could be the one…
I have believed with all my heart that love was in the hands of a person who was already committed to another person.
I have given my soul in any relationship I had to make them work.
I am 30 years old and ever since I can remember I was looking for a partner to SHARE my life with. A person I could develop with. A person to talk and listen with open mind, eyes and heart. A person to share equally. A person to learn from and teach to. A person who would like to face life in togetherness, in a creative way with creative directions. A person open to overcome fears. A person to be in constant movement with -and with movement I mean movement in life-.
Open to change, to reinvent himself. Open to my process of reinvention too. A supportive person to support too. A person ready to hear and offer different points of view. A person willing to see life from the unexpected. A person open to explore and work on his potencial and get the maximum of it. A person ready to accept my potencial and support me to get the maximum of it, with the same support I will offer him. A person to create a loving and emotionally healthy family with. A person to build a unit of energy called family where to create all together movement in this world toward happiness and joy.
For many years I was dreaming about creating a family in which all the members will teach and learn from each other. Where all will be committed to each other’s development. A supportive family build up over the pillars of boundaries, respect, support and love in equal parts. A creative open minded family in which kids and grown ups will be fearless to try new things in life. With high self-esteem, autonomy and clear minds.
I have done crazy things in my life in order to find this kind of love, partner and family. I have been looking for it with almost desperation. I have been living fast and intense, finding myself in many different countries, situations and with many different people.
Nothing helped me to find my Life Partner and the life I wanted to live.
Until now, I was never been able to find the true passion and purpose in my life, a fulfilling direction. I was not able to fully love and respect myself.
I have always been and I am a searcher. That’s one of the reasons I have arrived where I am now, because, despite everything I was, now I am discovering who I am.
For first time in my life, and for the rest of my life, I know, I have found what I was looking for: the person I want to share my life, to develop and growth, the person I want to create a family with.
Through my story I hope I can inspire others to know that you can also find the partner you are looking for. And maybe, give you some hints about how I fell into traps that were leading me to desperation and denigration, feeling attracted by men that will not bring me development and real love.