Creating the relationship I always looked for

Standard

This is the story of how after many years of difficult and seemingly impossible relationships across the world I finally actually found my life partner.

I have been a young successful professional.

I have traveled by myself for over than 15 countries.

I have been bulimic.

I have been a conventional partner in a conventional relationship.

I have been a lover in an affair.

I have left everything behind for love.

I have changed the city I was living in for love.

I have been in a relationship with a person that could have been my father.

I have adapted myself until the extreme, losing myself in the way, in order to accomplish his needs.

I traveled to other country to meet a person thinking that maybe this time he could be the one…

I have believed with all my heart that love was in the hands of a person who was already committed to another person.

I have given my soul in any relationship I had to make them work.


………………………………..

I am 30 years old and ever since I can remember I was looking for a partner to SHARE my life with. A person I could develop with. A person to talk and listen with open mind, eyes and heart. A person to share equally. A person to learn from and teach to. A person who would like to face life in togetherness, in a creative way with creative directions. A person open to overcome fears. A person to be in constant movement with -and with movement I mean movement in life-.

Open to change, to reinvent himself. Open to my process of reinvention too. A supportive person to support too. A person ready to hear and offer different points of view. A person willing to see life from the unexpected. A person open to explore and work on his potencial and get the maximum of it. A person ready to accept my potencial and support me to get the maximum of it, with the same support I will offer him. A person to create a loving and emotionally healthy family with. A person to build a unit of energy called family where to create all together movement in this world toward happiness and joy.

For many years I was dreaming about creating a family in which all the members will teach and learn from each other. Where all will be committed to each other’s development. A supportive family build up over the pillars of boundaries, respect, support and love in equal parts. A creative open minded family in which kids and grown ups will be fearless to try new things in life. With high self-esteem, autonomy and clear minds.

I have done crazy things in my life in order to find this kind of love, partner and family. I have been looking for it with almost desperation. I have been living fast and intense, finding myself in many different countries, situations and with many different people.

Nothing helped me to find my Life Partner and the life I wanted to live.

Until now, I was never been able to find the true passion and purpose in my life, a fulfilling direction.  I was not able to fully love and respect myself.

I have always been and I am a searcher. That’s one of the reasons I have arrived where I am now, because, despite everything I was, now I am discovering who I am.

For first time in my life, and for the rest of my life, I know, I have found what I was looking for: the person I want to share my life, to develop and growth, the person I want to create a family with.

Through my story I hope I can inspire others to know that you can also find the partner you are looking for. And maybe, give you some hints about how I fell into traps that were leading me to desperation and denigration, feeling attracted by men that will not bring me development and real love.

Advertisements

About lovesoulsandmusic

This blog is the story of how after many years of difficult and seemingly impossible relationships across the world I finally actually found the person I am living a real-love and always-in-movement and development relationship. Through my story I hope I can inspire others to know that you also can create a relationship where to find real joy and happiness. How and why I know that he is the person I will be with the rest of my life, and how you can know it too. And maybe, give you some hints about how I fell into traps that were leading me to desperation and in some situations also denigration, feeling attracted by men that will not bring me development and real love.

5 responses »

  1. I would like to be near you to express myself not only in words now that I have read what You put into the open in so many words with such an honesty about your life!I am seemly overwhelmed!
    I knew nothing about You except your name, but now I feel so close to you…

    That is why I feel words are not going to be enough to express my feelings sincerely and with all my heart.

    Sara

  2. Wow, I felt guided to tell you how deeply moving this was to me, for how candided you have been in your experience- this feels very healing, to peel away the inauthentic masks and I feel it can be inspiring to many many people. it really touched me in a deep way, having always considered myself a seeker and wanting to experience love in a partnership in a deeply enriching way where mutual growth support and love are omnipresent. Thank you for sharing and I look forward to continued blogs about your journey.
    ~Allison

    • Sarah, Allison, THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR WORDS, I loved to read them. They are encouraging me to continue writing new posts and being more and more aware of what it going on in our relationship. I send you lots of love and please, keep going giving me your feedback!!! It is precious for me 🙂

      Laura

  3. My love, it’s been amazing to support you along this journey of self discovery. And the best part is to have you as a partner.

    From your loving, joyful man-monkey and partner

  4. Laura!

    You are a beautiful soul! Thank you for sharing your journey so openly and honestly. I feel these words came straight from your heart and I also feel your strong desire to help people. It’s inspiring and uplifting to read your story and really brings joy to my heart.
    with lots of warm, fuzzy love,
    Anita

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s